I refunded my ticket to Bangkok and I am back in Pai because there is someone here waiting for me and I couldn't bear to leave her.

And I am glad that I am back. I find myself being more into her than I thought I would, and having someone who loves you so much is a feeling that words can't describe.

How do 2 people maintain a relationship when language is a barrier?

And I wish you would stop calling me 3 or4 or 5 times a day. I need my space. Gosh.

So I have moved out of Pai and now I am in Chiang Mai training at Chai Yai gym.

Is it alright to play with someone else's feelings? Sharing a room with someone who has a crush on you is tough, but it is even tougher when you have to share the same bed. Feeling guilty cos I have no feelings for this person, but I am so lonely here I just seem to switch into this 'play' mode, having fun with a few people. Last night we cuddled in bed etc etc. I just hope I am not gonna leave her with a broken heart cos I have no intention of anything serious.

Some weird shit has been happening here in Pai. First this thai girl (who is not pretty at all) gets all interested in me, then i get muslim girls asking me if i have a girlfriend and that one of them is interested.

Jesus.

Why couldn't I get some hot girl giving me all these attention...

Shermain, if you are reading this, come down here sia. haha.

Adrien (France) and I


Pee Mam (Thailand) and I


Tarrant (USA) and I

So I've been in Thailand for more than 3 weeks now, and the initial shock has gone and I have pretty much settled in.

Just had a bout of diarrhea and fever (many of the guys at the gym said that its very common), and I am pretty glad I'm feelin' better now.

Am friends with the guys at the gym now. Not like close buds or anything, but it feels nice to be able to have a chat everyday. There is this Asian American called John or Jon who studies at Notre Dame and scored 1440 out of 1600 for his SAT. Smart boy, he is gonna be a banker in future. Daddy was in the army, grew up as an army brat in Korea.

Then there is an Asian Canadian named David who is a really nice guy. Comes from Vancouver and did not go to college (omg, an Asian who did not go to college?!)

We have a few Brits (2 are sitting right next to me as I type this) and 2 French guys ...

Oh, I got an acceptance letter by University of Oregon.

GO DUCKS!

I'll wait for Smith College's reply before I decide.